Sorry. I got lazy.

It's been a long time. Sorry. I got lazy. I'll try to be more regular.

It's the "Christmas Around the World" festival on board at the moment. We've had LOADS of visitors, and I think your prayers for Denmark have really been working!! People aren't freaked out by us so much anymore! We had an official opening involving LOTS of important people and ambassadors from around the world, and since then, the Danes have been following suit with 100s of visitors every weekend, despite the freezing horrible weather. And so many have commented on the sense of peace they feel when coming onboard, or the joy they see in the faces around them. They've also been surprised by the family feeling. One man can't get enough. He feels like he's finally back home after leaving his country and family last year. He feels so accepted and at-home here. It's pretty amazing considering how many thousands of faults we all have, which are mirrored constantly to us by our brothers and sisters at work or in life...I get amazed sometimes that God uses people like us. Strange.

We also had Jessy Dixon on board for a gospel concert the other night. Quite a big turn out. Despite a series of unfortunate events and a very unfortunate local choir...(VERY unfortunate ability-wise)...it went really well, and the Danes LOVED it.

Things are really starting to happen now. The ship is almost ready to plunge into "ministry phase". I dunno if the people are! We are all totally inexperienced. None of us have learnt from older crew members because the Logos Hope history hasn't yet included a ministry phase! So I think it's going to be a bit of a wild time for us. But hey. Whatever. We're up for that. I guess it will shine God's glory even more when things actually go well, because that will be a bit of a miracle!

I'm not doing great right now. I'm angry and I'm having nightmares. I have to forgive someone who I really hate. And I'm mad at God for putting that conviction so heavy on my heart, and having people reflect the same thing makes me even madder.

It's not like I don't love God. I'm just mad. That's an easy comfy emotion for me.

Anyway, here's a song I wrote a month back when I wasn't so mad. Maybe I should sing it again, and I'd stop being so hard in my heart.

Lover,
Put your head against my chest
Listen to my heatbeat
In me you'll find your rest
Lover
Put your head against my chest
Listen to my heartbeat
In me you'll find your rest

Beautiful
Oh beautiful
You are my child
Beautiful
Oh beautiful
You are my child

Lover
Cling tightly to my hand
I know I'm unpredictable
but just trust me if you can
Lover
Cling tightly to my hand
I know I'm unpredictable
but just trust me if you can

Lover
I'm wild over you
I died as your protector
Please say you love me too
Lover
I'm just wild over you
I died as your protector
Please say you love me to

Come
With me
Come into my glory
Come
With me
Let me hold you tenderly
Child come with me
Come into my glory
Come
With me
Let me hold you tenderly...