Trust

Back in January when I was on the GO conference, we had a praying day. And on that day, I got a really cool picture in my head which put "trusting God" in a crazy new light. I guess the "mind picture" was from God, unless it's just my amazing imagination (which He created anyway...). But it really flipped my perspective on life.

"Trust God"; it sounds so "Sunday School" and boring and meaningless to a kid who's grown up hearing those words a thousand times over. But picture this;

I've reached the edge of the earth; a massive cliff. I look down and there is nothing but swirling darkness. I can't even see if the drop down ever ends. God is by my side. A massive being of greatness and power and everything good. He says, "Do you trust me Beth?" I'm terrified and overwhelmed with excitement at the exact same time. I look into those eyes, and from all I know of Him so far, I KNOW I can trust Him. I nod and grin. He sweeps me up inside Himself, deep inside His deepest depths, and cradles me in His hands. "Are you ready Beth?" I know not to ask "What for?", because trusting Him means I won't always know. I nod again. And He leaps from the edge of the world! And we're falling, and my stomache's in my mouth, and I'm scared, but I have a strange sense of peace and deep excitement, because I know I'm with my King, and I trust Him completely, even though our adventure has just taken us over the side of a cliff and into a sea of swirling darkness...

How cool is that?!

The tough bit is having the wisdom to jump of the cliff "in" Him each day. That's what I've been learning since I've made it to the ships...Sometimes I choose to be my own boss for a while, and things get really messy again, then it hits me; I havn't even bothered listening to any of His quiet, awesome invitations lately! I quickly run back to the cliff, and He's waiting patiently full of grace every time...

I wish I could just get my act together and stop hurting Him. I want to be soaring through the unknown with Him every second of every day, and making Him laugh and bringing Him joy by just enjoying Him...I long for Him to be my biggest influence, cos he's my idol! My favourite company! I want to be so "under the influence" that my heart is just an extension of His! Same motives, same goals, same desires...wow. Imagine that...

Bec Scriv, lately, you've been running through my head a real lot. (You must be exhausted!) (That joke was for you Uncle Rob...) But I just want you to know that I love you and I'm behind you and God and I chat about you all the time. I pray you're going ok. God doesn't tell me much, but I have a feeling that things are tough right now. You've got everything you need to make it through girl! The King's living in you and He'll NEVER leave you or forsake you. He promised. And He NEVER breaks promises. He leaves that to us!

"Our vision is so limited, we can hardly imagine a love that does not show itself in protection from suffering. The love of God is of a different nature all together. It does not hate tragedy. It never denies reality. It stands in the very teeth of suffering. The love of God did not protect His own son. That was the proof of this love - that He gave that son; that He let him go to Calvary's cross, though "legions of angels" might have rescued him. He will not necessarily protect us - not from anything it takes to make us like His Son."

-Elizabeth Elliot
"Passion and Purity"

Go strong girl! xx